the rest is still unwritten.

been having second thoughts about blogging need to get a diary asap so that there's at least an outlet for me to express my excessively supressed thoughts and whims. things haven't been looking up, what's new right. assignments due this week, more coming and finals in a month. the thought of school churns up all the toxic in my stomach which goes straight to the heart resulting in severe breathing difficulties. yeah i am exaggerating but the neverending rat-race seems more futile cause the future seems so bleak that i myself was afraid of approaching the palm-reader in case my seemingly unsound theories are proven true. trivial things start to bother me time and again. i havent been able to contribute productively in classes. my marks are way way way below average. maybe making the cut does not entirely mean i am up for it. self-doubt is reigning over everything and considering confidence is zilch(more to negative prolly) nothing hopeful surfaces. i hope i myself am able to prove myself wrong.

faith?

october's been horrible and its only midway can you believe it?!?!?!?! syawal hasn't been that awesome either with all the facade and hypocrites and pricey things either carelessly misplaced or involuntarily stolen. mid terms have been awfully mind-blowing cause results are (not) surprisingly terrible and i am totally failing some of the modules. sigh sigh sigh sigh. now now how am i supposed be optimistic about finals when i can't even get past mids on a safe note. things are not getting any better when assignments are mounting like Krazy! oh man sometimes i doubt i can pull through all this cause its really getting strenuous physically and mentally.

need my welfare pack now now now.

i know you are but what am i?

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