Chasing pavements.

the effect of ten hours of painful lectures plus three hours of not-so-bad tutorials in forty-eight hours and less than ten hours of sleep is throbbing migraine while your heavily jap/korean accent-ed lecturer is explaining about samurais and literatis cause you've probably burst every braincell in the attempt to decipher what he just said. my well deserved two days rest shall be devoted to readings and more readings cause the plans for the weekends seems endless although i am certain that i'll be blowing off more than half of them (which i hope i dont since i wont be able to do much of them come ramadhan) but anything seems possible now that i lack all enthusiasm for anything at all. fasting starts in a few days(i am so not mentally prepared) and mids during syawal(!). everything is suddenly happening at godspeed lets just hope i can manage to keep up.

that aside, i had a great weekend sleeping in, cycling at east coast park, riding a river taxi and attending a french lesson so cheers to more great weekends ahead with fish spas, nature walks, luge rides(!!!!!) and stargazing in the middle of the football field.

Effortlessly.

i caught jane austen book club three freaking times this week and its just splendid making me smile at the end of it every single time. need to get the dvd asap and catch reruns over and over again especially when school has been a total bore and excruciatingly difficult.

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hello, i am catwoman!

i finally changed my skin to something that gives out an equal amount of depressing aura in less than half hour. way to go!

Like Never Before.

oh man. i haven't been meeting so many people i wanna meet for months now. at least plans have been made and i finally got to meet the porkies after countless postponings and cancellations. i really really really really (times infinity) should stop cancelling out on people. so anyways, we went about our usual minah-isms and food and starbucks(after so long!) although sadly theres a lack of bitchfits and complains and whinings by me. we should we should 'go out' after prelims just for a day okay(arts bash or nature trip!) and since i'm gonna be over at the west, i am gonna meet up with the long lost millenians. its been months(!) since we last gossiped and ate and walked around aimlessly (i remembered the time where we ponned school and mac hopped and played cards and took long train rides eating popcorn, hah!) so yes, we gotta meet like soon enough. not forgetting the guys who are supposedly training 'dangerously' over the seas to save unworthy people (i.e. me) or so ts said.

school's kinda great these two weeks since i only have a two-day school week! oh and i am most prolly (finally!) joining yoga thanks to wl who was willing to try it out with me and we amazingly have so many things in common and we kept on bumping into each other before we actually got to know each other. yayness! oh and maybe touch rugby too cause i obviously am no longer a netball material or a floorball material. but touch rug can get frustrating. gotta think it through and through though. academically, school's been draining cause lectures last one hour and forty-five minutes long. and i still don't understand why i'm taking lit cause its really too dry and deep for this minute brain of mine. maybe i should drop that and learn the sexy french language. although it is quite impossible since i dont know whether thats like possible at all, but totally cool though. maybe i'll take french next sem or something. and tutorial balloting's not even close to done yet. please pray that i'll be getting the slots i want cause i am gonna be totally depressed(again) if i don't since i'll have absurdly long breaks with practically nothing much to do(except studying, of course)!

and damn, its mid aug already, meaning that ramadhan's gonna come in two bloody weeks and i've yet to pay for the gazillion days i've missed. ughhhh. hopefully i wont be ironically gaining weight during the course cause i subconsciously made three(!) kebayas when i am much more in love with kurungs cause you get to see my lovehandles in kebayas. see, i have to join sports cca, like majorly to stop major disasters from happening come syawal! hopefully i'll pull through fasting during mid-terms and all the early evening classes i have. if you happen to break fast with me, please remind me not to binge, although it's hardly ever happened.

and our triple birthday celebration for august babies last friday, sorry didn't make it today mins!

the internet is a really scary place/thing/whatever. with just a click of the button on that particular website, painful memories come back flooding into my thoughts, contaminating it with what-could-have-beens if i wasn't so egoistic. i'm gonna try to make it as vague as possible cause describing it in details will just be too.....(no words can describe it apparently) and fyi, i was unaware of the situation until things have gone way too out of control and unlike you, i bet i would have done something about it aside from waiting. and for a moment it was mutual only that i am aware that i am unworthy of you(as mentioned) thus the lack of response. thank god i chanced upon it if not i'll still be harping on the fact that i screwed it all up in one way or another. thanks for clearing my conscience. you know, i've always known you weren't true in a sense, hesitant and downright a jerk. it all explains everything. i am so glad every form of contact have been cleared. thank you, now a new chapter shall begin since it no longer lingers.

karma'll get you. get you good.

oh. my. god. bidding have been so stressful and boy am i glad that i finally got five fucking modules. eventhough i know i am as dead as a cow(?!?) for choosing some genes and society shit at least i'm like fulfilling the ulr or something and all the brain juice that i will be pouring into the module wont go to waste. and i am doing literature again, wtf, serious. ugh. i so hate all my seniors right now(except lovely grace of course) eventhough i have no idea what they look like and have never had any contact with them cause theyre cyberbullies bidding as high as thousands and making me so depressed for not getting the modules that i want. huge bummer okays, i spent so much time planning my timetable and shit only to know that i have been outbidded. ughhhhh! nevermind there might be a silver lining to it cause i've saved so many points that i can (hopefully) outbid others for those modules next sem.





i hope once school officially starts, things wont be so goddamn irritating anymore cause it started out pretty badly (unofficially) with the target for girls for oweek being met and i cant attend orientation unless i crash and crashing felt so weird cause i totally feel like an extra. a gazillion apologies to jun and christine for the multiple cancellations on my part! furthermore i hafta take the q-fucking-e test but miraculously i didnt have to take another module. (: and the bidding system was totally wrecked since i have no idea at all how much i should bid and shit making me totally miserable when i get outbidded. should stop complaining already.





that aside, i finally got new stationeries(eventhough it wasnt much at all, its the first step at least), gotta activate my internet banking next so that i can start shopping online massively since spree organizers can be damn bitchy about atm transfers. need to get a sports bag asap cause i intend to participate actively in a sports cca so i will lose all the fats(yeah right) and be healthier(haha!). need to decide on which cca first. and the shopping comes next.

lastly, say hello to my daughter! (:

the skins getting too depressing alr ):