So glad meeting the baches tomorrow. Hope I'm able to go. Since my sister asked me to accompany her AGAIN. Thinking of declining though. Life's kind of sucky this few days. Neverending geography tutorial homeworks, boring economics tutorials, weird literature tutorials and super duper boring and redundant geoagraphy tutorials. Gosh! I know I have to look on the bright side of life. But you don't know how hard I've tried to look at it positively, walking from one class to another alone. Damn, it's damn hard. Err, whatever happen to there's a reason for everything to happen? Nevermind, POSITIVE is the way!

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Fridays are usually my day. The end of the week, no school the following morning and can chat until dawn. But well, today was the first worst friday of my life. Knowing that actually i woke up late. Had an overdue econs essay thats halfway done and still overdue. Missed two buses. How worse can the day get?? Well, VERY I shall say. 1 hour of mass PE= torture. Excrutiating stomach cramps. Somersaults in my stomach. I don't know how it came to that since it wasn't my first day. Maybe just my LUCK. When I really couldn't stand the pain, I asked my CT for early release, and THANK GOD, she approved.

Came home early, yadayada. And thanks wana for accompanying me through the ordeal=) LOVE YOU! Haha. I slept in the bus on the way home. Impressive=) Maybe I was err, WEAK? TIRED? argh, whatever -_- Slept again after reaching home. And amazingly I woke up when Shikin called. =) Improvement! Then watched Friends the comedy. SUPERB. And met wana, she came over=) I did something stupid- sent a msg to the wrong person. DAMN I SUCK BIG TIME (those who hates me will surely agree strongly). Well, at least I admit that.

Bought a Le Coq Sportif Bag. Woohoo I love it=) Well, I was torn whether to buy the Pony bag or Le Coq Sportif, but err, I bought Le Coq. So, I don't think I'll be wearing much of my SUPER DUPER GREEN BAG anymore=( Anw, I'll have to adapt to these changes.HAHA.

Met Amirah, Shikin, Syarfa, Khairina, Rilla and syarfa's friends yesterday. Was so much fun talking and talking. Rilla kissed me!YEAY! She's such a cutie=) and Nas missed that=( Well, she can always come Woodlands to meet me=)HAHA. Fat hope.

So ya nothing superbly interesting. Except that life sucks. Well, whats new anyway??

bitchybitch-

sch-schna-schnappy
HAPPY HAPPY HAPPY

lovelove

I forgot to reply to the taggies

so here we go.

*kairena! you didn't tell me you wanna tag along. next time ok babe!=)and can't wait to see you tomorrow!=)

*anonymous!i know its you ezzat.and its not you!

*anonymous/wana!i look weird wearing it.its green!!!and how selenge can you get??and you're the problem.not blogger.

*laila!its not good.she'll tell what bad things i do in school to everyone in my family.

*nas!i'm glad we met just now!=)and don't be evil anymore!!=)


I did it. Or maybe we did. We met up darlings! Ate, as usual. And a whole lot of bitching. I don't know why but it seems so easy to open up to them. And our new uniforms, Shikin's the cheeky one. Short skirt ar girl!=)

Nas seemed the most innocent with the long skirt. But hell NO!, she's the err, EVILEST. Always bully me, though never fails to make me laugh. Especially her blurness. I seriously don't understand why. Had serious fun with the both of you. Thanks a lot for coming down to Woodlands. Well, I know its mandatory to come and meet you people tomorrow. But WHAT IF I fall sick??HAHA. Okok. Just kidding=)

School was hectic today. Too much classes, but thank god we mingled around. Now, I feel secure. Cute and fun people in my class.=) 120-I'm looking forward to our excursion. Damn!I have alot of homeworks -_- 2 Economics essay, 3 Geography tutorials because I don't have the notes, Malay paragraph thingy, Maths tutorial, Lit reading up. And god knows what else. And its just the official first week of school. Its a good thing theres no netball today. Or I'd died. HAHA.

Its a good thing I'm over and done with it=)

Know what? I've realised that friends are not what they seem. Don't judge a book by its covers and give others a second chance. For all you know, they've changed. Well, people change. Not all anyway. I've been looking forward to something. If that happens, I'll be the most satisfied girl on earth. Since, I've proved my point. Well, some people just suck to me and you can't change that. Though I have tried my very best to look on the positive side. I'm struggling for that particular person. Eventhough he/she have helped me countless time. Well, I'm a forgiver, but I NEVER forget.

I can't wait for tomorrow or Thursday. Practically, Shikin misses me too much (I wish) until she wants to bring our meeting forward to tomorrow. Well, I hope I don't have Netball training tomorrow so I can meet up with her and Nas. I miss them so. The moment I have time alone to think, I think of all the fun we had playing and skipping classes. Such a memorable yet notorious experience. Thats the bravest and notorious times of my life. Much better than in secondary school.

I met up with Fara just now. As pretty as ever. Still a blur too. Change la my dear friend. HAHA. I'm so glad you volunteered to treat me to the movies. Talking about that, I owe Rendy money. -_- "

I have yet to give a tribute to my MI wonderful friends. Well, next entry perhaps. But I think you get the idea how they are by reading my entries. Well, they are WONDERFUL people. SERIOUSLY. Pretty and intelligent. Where else can you get that. They deserve someone as good as them. =)

School was ok. Getting the hang of the tedious homeworks and notes. Oh my. I must work doubly hard.give me support people.=)

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I'm born to be in boring classes I think. Okay, maybe my class is not boring. Maybe I'm the boring one. Well, you can't blame me actually. They've all bonded during the first two months. And thats alot. Thus, leading to the outcasted feeling I have. =S

I hope it turns out good. Well, they're going to be my classmates for 1 and a half years more. And I have yet to really find that one good friend. Maybe thats too much to ask. Well, unluckily I got my sister as my Malay teacher. Shits. And shittier, that ONE person who lied to me to be in the same class. Just my luck perhaps.

School will be super tiring. The earliest I'm going home is at 3pm. The latest is 4:30. See any difference? Hopefully I'm meeting up with the girls on thursday. Probably at BB, beacuse Nas ends the latest on that day and we might as well meet her there. And Khairina, Syarfa, Mira and whoever else who wants to join us. Just msg ok?

One hell of a rollercoaster with friends. The friend dumper or whatever it is called is not you Ezzat. Seriously. Its some idiot and its not you.

I suck.

holiday

my holiday was superbly fine!though it was fricking HOT.i was sweating like a pig sitting in the van.well, we were supposed to be comfortably sitting in a car fully-airconditioned but my superly duperly clever BIL had to crashed into a van a few days before the holiday.URGHNESS.thus, leaving us with no other choice but to travel in a van thats like URGH!

but at the very least i reached desaru and home safely!well.the beach was AMAZING.it was picturesque.the waves.OH MY.too strong until i fell while walking deeper into the sea.=)i really enjoyed the holiday.the nice seafood.the superb sand.the sea creatures hunt.and the WAKE BOARDING AND GOCART-ING!i cant imagine myself wakeboarding.BUT HELL!i did it!
was irritatingly fun.irritating is because the water TOO salty.fun because i floated on the wave!gocart-ing was err-crashy?well, i crashed into the tyres far too much!=P

the hotel was okok.did alot of swimming till im super duper red and burning.esp my forehead,nose and cheek.A TORTURE.cause it hurts when i laugh and smile.i had real FUN though.now i can't wait for ODAC!haha.im MAD.

just went to the portal thingy and i checked my class!OH MY.theres noone i know!=( we are all in different classes.BLOODY HELL.

and just to note that i'm not waiting for explanations from anyone!esp people who dump friends when they are in a bgr.well, im petty or whatever you want to say.I DONT TREAT MY FRIENDS THAT WAY!and YOU bloddy hell know the guy!argh!fine!whatever!be it.

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sch-schna-schnappy

one happy day.right from 1am on the 15th of march!well,most of it was happy la.it started with playing solitaire showdown, with none other than the card/gambling obsessed shikin!haha.i had total fun eventhough i lost!=)but my bitchy sister had to interrupt the fun we were having by screaming!KELUAR SEKARANG!-_-she's soo good at making my day.*claps for her*

then i bitched on the phone with wana.it's soo nice to do that after taking a break for like MONTHS! see how a bad influence zawana was.fancy calling me in the middle of the night??WHAT WERE YOU THINKING.well,it was fun.telling her my future daughter's name.well, i only want one boy and one girl. and i've thought of their names alright.HAHA.one crazy idea. what if i will never find my life partner eh?HMM.then maybe i'll just hook up with some guy la. HAHA.maybe two since i want to have 2 children. or if noone wants to hook up with me.i'll just adopt.since err, i can't have my one.WHAT THE CRAP AM I TALKING.well, thats my err,maybe a long term view.HAHA.

okok.back to the point.IM HAPPY.well, i won the $2 bet with zawana!and i played cluedo.THE MOST INTERESTING PART WAS PLAYING X-BOX.i've never thought that i would touch that thing since i was not at all interested!WELL!i am now!esp the tony hawk game!I'm addicted man!getting abit crazy here.okok.

now.i have to apologize to shikin.for err not meeting her since i'm too caught up with x-box.haha,SORRY BABE.i'll surely meet you on saturday okok?WELL.if i come home early on friday, then friday it shall be!=)

and.THANKS WANA.for dropping by.and buying all those crackers.and playing the x-box with me!i'm sure glad keropok lekor is coming our way real soon!=)THANKS AGAIN BABE!and SHE'S coming for my holiday!double HOORAY!can't wait to wind-surf,suntan,jet-ski and swim with you!HAHA

these things really made me forget all my troubles.but at least i forgot about them even for one millisecond!well, at least i have this holiday to look forward to.eventhough its errm not a really happy one to look forward to.-_-

confused and down

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In a few months time, I'll be taking my malay examinations.OMG.I can't believe this is really happening.Well, I'm not at all good with malay, though i constantly use it as the language when talking to secondary school friends. I don't think I'm one bit ready for the examinations. Furthermore, with a teacher like Cikgu Said -_-, it further brings my moral down although he gives alot of infromation on GK.

Well, you can't blame me for having all that insecurities. I'm lacking behind after all the class ponning in MI and the cards playing. It was great I shall say, and I miss those times. Truthfully, I find MI far more happening than YJC. Cause we will all go out to eat somewhere after school. Well, its not literally YJC's fault right? Hmm..forget it. Hopefully it turns out for the better. Hopefully.

Friends, they come and go. Some even lie and stab you in the back. Well, life's a game to some of them. I really hate it when you force the information out of someone, and refuse to share your own. Oh well, you have your own rights I guess. And you, fancy not telling me the truth, and now ignoring me.*claps* Well done! Just don't come running to me asking whether I'm ok or not.
I think thats the need for new friends, to replace the liars. Well my MI friends are way better than YOU.

I f anyone out the that know they are innocent but feels disturbed by the previous paragraph. 1000 apologies=).I'm just speaking my mind. Cause, I'm like that. Anyways, hope life turns out fine. I'm still in a daze. To be or not to be=S

note:this is some random thoughts at the back of my mind

fast one

in one month or earlier,i'm gonna be an auntie.EEWW.how old it sounds.but i'm soooo looking forward to it la.as in, the presence of the baby cot,and all of the baby's stuffs is telling me, IM GETTING A NEPHEW.how am i gonna stand the crys at night,the smelly diapers.ARGH!well, i still look forward to a handsome and charming prince coming.WOOHOO!the cute chubby cheeks.the cutes eyes.well,hope he's not gonna be as fat and iritaing as his father!HAHAHA.well, thats was partially a joke!=)

okok.today did nothing much except for watch TV.eat.and err,set up the baby cot!yippee!!!another achievement for the month?err,maybe year perhaps.HAHA.i've done my maths homework.only the first part.cause i still haven't buy the graphic calculator.well,all thanks to my father la.so slow.well, at least he gave me money la.thats a thumbs up.well, its his responsibilty after all.HEE=P

so,met my darlings yesterday.=)all look as pretty as ever!well,nas missed our meetings!DAMN IT LA!haha.if not i'll have 3 victims to bully!haha.i'm evil la.well, not as evil as shikin that is.=)
our supposedly coffeebean trip was err, cancelled due to some ahem* ppl.well, i'm not telling who but you know who you are!=)well, we did have a blast at MAC.our favourite hangout place.and had our fab game of taiti=)

look at how many smiles im putting.well, i had fun with them. and hopefully, nas will come too for the next so called baches meeting.yeah nas. well she forced me to say I MISS NASIRAH.
haha.well, i really miss her la.her weird ideas and her eyes rolling.where else can i get that?wwell, maybe from china?HAHA.

craps la.so well.i've done most of my homework.hope schools fine tomorrow.and i just hope for the best for anything you ppl are doing.and yeah.LIFE SUCKS!

and ppl.you bloody hell tell me you don't wanna tell me rather than lying.cause i bloody hell hate liars.esp if ur supposedly my best friend!understood??

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saturday the 11th

Mood : INSECURE =S

Yesterday, I've made a decision that involves my future. I've decided that I'm going to take up H2 Geography. Eventhough it is said to be difficult. I'm going to try my very very best. Well, I find that the subject is interesting. I now know how the Himalayas came about.

So people, stop giving me the "Are you sure you can handle Geography look" ok?

Now, I'm just wondering whether I want to buy my sports shoes today. Well, it is important for me since I'm going for Netball as a CCA. I'm also taking ODAC and err, MCS? Well, i was unsure of what I want to take, so i wrote MCS down.HAHA. I'm too unpredictable. Should have written Student Coucil instead. Haha. CRAPS. I had wanted floorball actually. But it was kind of awkward going for trials by yourself. Since my friends went for the Volleyball trial.

So, thank god i have gotten over the regret of not going for the floorball trial. If not I'll still be whiny about it. The finale night yesterday was alright. I'm not a good dancer. I CONFESS. So, you can imagine how i fared trying to groove all night long. Had fun though with Meryl, Qing Yu and Zahirah.=)

Classes was alright, I managed to catch up slightly. Missed economics lecture though because i was late for class. But i tried to catch up by reading the notes myself. So, school's hopefully going to be fine after the term. Hopefully my only friends in class will accompany me to school on Monday and Tuesday. If not, I'm going to be alone yet again.=(

Can't wait for the Holiday. The sun-tanning, go-carting, wind-surfing, jet-skiing and swimming. OH MY. Why must it only be 2 days and 1 night? Anyways, I don't think I'm able to do all that since I don't really have alot of money with me. Well, my bills need to be paid up you see. And I'm thinking of buying a crumpler for myself. Well, I think I will never achieve that la. Since, I'm a spendtrift. OH WELL. When i start working it will be.

Can't wait for tonight. Meeting my girlfriends! I miss them HEAPS! <3

Gonna start studying now!=)

Sometimes, I question "How do friends treat each other?", is it by keeping the existence of your gf/bf away from each other? Don't ever worry because i'll never be interested to take your life partner away from you. SERIOUSLY.p/s:if i ever find out that its true.its OVER BETWEEN US!

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SADNESS

im half sad.all because my dear good buddy in YJC got into JJC.but JOANNNE!don't worry i'm happy for you la.CONGRATS GIRL.told ya you'll get into JJC since i followed you there!!!=)

well.gonna miss seeing you every morning.and planning where to g next.your CUTENESS.oh my.life goes on la.gonna find new friends.well,all because old friends forget one another i suppose.

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cries!

damn.i really do miss my MI friends!
UURRRGGGHHHHHH.
its strange how we got that close
within 2 pathethic months.
well.life goes on.and i don't really miss
nas+syarfa+zee
cause i met those babes just now!
SUPER DUPERLY MISS THEM SIA.
haish!!!!!=(((

so ya.can't wait for the outing baches!
cause i know its gonna be FUN!

okok.my life in yj.was errr~okla
wasn't that bad of course.i <3 my OG la
cool ppl.i think we are the only decent looking ones
theres like joanne=)+meryl+felicia+andria
cool la.although they are appealing out.
it will be NICE having them ard for this week
we are sooo united pls.

well.i got into P19.and have my sister as the civics tutor
WTH???im sooo gonna die la.but its a good thing its only temporary.i think.
and yj is so full of millenians pls.either from TT or B.
like cool la.talking about that.i went to MI just now.well,supposedly to meet nasirah darl la.but she can't get out of school early,so i went into MI to meet her la.and OMG.i saw all my MI friends.a whole bunch of them!!!!yippee!!!!!!!!!!!=)saw siya,ain nabila,timothy.and most amazingly,hadi.well.it didn't really bother me la.only that i heard he went to poly.so i was super shocked when he went to MI.okok.back to my point.i missed them loads la.so long nvr see them la.usually nearly everday see each other.play cards.eat.='(

now can't do that anymore.NEED TO PULL UP MY SOCKS.BUCK UP!
help me girls!and since we are going to take the same sunject combi,we can study together2
YEAY!oh well.thats about it.and i can't wait for my nephew to arrive.its gonna be ard 3 weeks more.=)and all they baby thingies at home really make me feel weird!

youfooforforgetfetfriendsfenswhenfentheresfaresafeguyfuy
welfellyoufooarefarafegoodfoodfriendfen!wellfelldonefon!

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urgh

one vicious cycle
concerning my insecurities
goddammit

results

im neither pleased nor drenched with regrets upon getting my results.
oh well.i can't expect that much looking at how well i did for my Os
at the very least.yjc accepted me.then,here i come yj!

so ya.im neither happy nor sad.or even anxious to know my results
but the constant nagging by my mom led to the checking of results
so ya.im not even looking forward to it la
sigh*

sometimes i couldnt care less.but sometimes i care too much
sometimes i look too much to negativity.well.its hard to be positive
but then,2 yrs wouldnt be too much to handle.just do my very best for promos this year
and do superbly well for As.I HOPE!!!
i wanna become a lawyer.get my degrees!
and ya.be a career woman perhaps

argh!whatever it is.im damn half-hearted in these situations
i can't even decide which cca im gonna join.hopefully i wont be inTAF la
malas nak lari-lari.and all

p/s:nas!appeal olright!i wouldnt want a pretty girl like u in MI!=)and shikin!ur meant to be in AJC!=))

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ok.its 1:46 in the morning of 3rd of march.im nearly 6 hours away from the JAE results.SCARY laa.=S but look on the bright side.IM STILL AWAKE!so yar.i have nothing interesting to say.my minds blank.and i can still taste the yummylicious crunchie i just ate to bury my problems.but hell yeah.it works for only a few miliseconds.ARGH!

dammit la.i was tagged twice.but that doesn't mean im gonna do it twice.so here we go.my answers are crap la.since im bored to death.

The RULES: Remove the blog in the top spot from the following list and bump everyone up in one place.Then add your blog to the bottom spot.
1. stranded
2. WorldFullofVoices
3. green.with.envy
4. [[ Trapped Behind The Windows ]]
5. DARLINGiLOVEyou

Then you select 5 people to pass the love on to:
1) nurZAWANAbteMUSTAPHA
2) EZZATmustasar
3) ASHIKIN
4) NASIRAH
5) nurIZZAH

And here it goes :What were you doing 10yrs ago??
16-10=6.oh well.maybe being all cute in my primary one class.HAHA.who remembers sey??

5 Songs which you know all the lyrics off your head right now;
1) checkONit*beyonceKNOWLES
2) rompe*DADDYyankee
3) itsALLaboutYOU*mcFLY
4) takBISAKAH*peterPAN
5) stickWITyou*pussyCATdolls

5 things you would do if you are a millionaire;
1) SHOPPING
2) TRAVELallAROUNDtheWORLD
3) buyMYownISLAND(named after me of course,and build a bungalow there which can be a hangout for the baches and other friends=))
4) rule the universe.
5) own the volkwagen beetle or lamborghini

5 Bad Habits;
1) bitch about ppl.but im trying my best to stop!=P
2) sleep.like always!thats why im always absent from school
3) ignore smses when im like watching tv-_-
4) bully ppl.but im loving it!
5) getting too stressed up over NOTHING

5 things you like doing;
1) chatting(on the phone or msn)
2) Sleep
3) hang out with friends
4) play cards.mahjong
5) eat egg tarts,crunchie,ice cream and all the things that help me destress

5 Things you would never wear, buy, or get new again;
1) g-strings
2) pork
3) tattoos?
4) memories
5) platforms

5 Favourite Toys;
1) handphone
2) computer
3) barbie doll(like real!)
4) nokia 6111
5) err.mp3

sigh

distances gets further
circles gets wider
thats what friendships are like now
well,your distance wouldn't get further
unless u initiate meetings and calls
but sometimes,don't you get tired of
being the same old one calling over
and over again.well,i do..

just like when ur in a bgr
u need both hands to clap right
well,u need that for everything
therefore ppl.action speaks louder than words
and if all u can do is say it out.
ur just wasting ur bloody saliva

and yeah.something random that i thought off
and goddammit.im unsure of what i expect to see
for my school posting results.ARGH!

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gayNESS

today was a FUN and unexpected day
TOTALLY!i just love today to bits and pieces
and ya i hope tmr will be MORE FUN

okok.it was mainly fun because a group of aimless girls can really come up with great ideas of where to go.thats totally COOL la.though we crapped in the mrt baches!it was hell alot of fun.considering that theres the popcorn and me!okok.the day with my girlfriends(irah,kinkin,izzah) was totally SUPERB.+my 06A2 and the BIs.it just made my boring day a hell lot better.

first we were like aimless.then we went to 06A2's bbq after that.after a hell lot of convincing for nas.well,she had a bad feeling abt it.n yeah.it was BAD la.but girl.that was ur luck la for being super duper*ahem "NICE" to me.=))))))well,we got a little lost taking 403.but well theres always a hero when theres 4 damsels in distress(err..did i get this right??watever la eh).so ya "my" dearest jeremy fetched us well cause,i disturb him from his sleep.well,thats what friends are for right??HAHA.damn.anw.nas left without even going INTO the bungalow.damn it laa.then we went in.it was DAMN HUGE LA.FUNFUNFUN!!!!!!!!XD


i learnt something today ppl of the universe!!!that is to play MAHJONG.hell yeah.it was hilarious+fun.but damn it la.my fengshui was BAD.undoubtly.which caused me to lose miserably!!!! DAMMIT LAA!!so..ya.got mahjong kakis.COOL ppl.we are all newbies against each others and our si-fus were ard to like HELP.haha.then they went to buy the bbq stuffs while we take care of the bungalow.was damn funla.IMAGINE 3 GIRLS IN A BUNGALOW ALL BY THEMSELVES HUNGRY.haha.so we ordered mac.and it came earlier than expected la.COOL!!then we cam whored abit.and then izzah need to go off.left me n kinkin.we commited suicide but landed on something safe.so ya.im still alive and kicking!then when the rest of the world came, we like played taiti with ji song and bao mien.FUN la.eventhough i like lost!man.theres something wrong with the cards laa.after a tiring game of taiti.we played fooz-ball(damn my spelling is getting worse!!!).HILARIOUS la.more shouts then ever.so the BIs arrived.COOL ppl la they all.=))

then we rested awhile.me n shikin like shared a bed to rest onla..(don't be jealous NAS!!);)so ya.we wanted to bitch ard with adam.he was inside the room as well.but then like there were OBSTRUCTIONS.DAMMIT!!but u know.can't help it laa.so ya..when we nearly wanted to bitch ard again,ppl came in AGAIN!damn.privacy sikit la ppl.HAHA!so ya.we nvr got to know the bitching story la.all because of the obstruction.well,soon i guess.so after that.me n kinkin went to pasir ris park.it welcomed us la.as in the wind like keep on blowing.good for destressing la..since we are like too stressed up already playing stress.HAHA.so ya after that came back for the bbq.and ate marshmellows.and chicken specially done by the BIs.yum2!and like i think this week is a horny week la.for god's sake!listening to cats' moaning is GROSS la.its loud somemore la.like the whole lot of us talking and we still can hear its' moans.OMG!

so ya.played our last game of fooz-ball.and mahjong and off to home we go.the BIs accompanied us home.SO SWEET LA.aww!!haha.and sahira.i still can't believe ur malay.DAMN la.ur so NOT malay-looking!!=)okok.joanne was superbly hyper la.CUTIE!!and yeah.otw home.i was like dumped halfway by wana.cause she apparently forgot to call me back.DAMMIT la wana.and then nas accompanied me!thanks ya darl!u know i love u!=))don't be jealous shikin!=)))so ya.
thanks everyone for making my day!!=))

a day that should never be forgotten laa.=))crashing IJC tmr!

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