betrayed

what a sucky day today is.so hate it.firstly,woke up late.then i couldnt accompany rendy at the airport.haiz.what a waste.haiya.

nvm.said sorry to him.ended up at northpoint.bleah`freaking tired.starting work soon.gosh.so unprepared.

niwaes.two things made me unhappy.ONE:the fact that friends or so they may call themselves are so selfish.hahah.forget it.i wouldnt wanna treat them as friends also.good thing i changed no.i wouldnt wanna be linked to them anyways.bunch of betrayers.

another is my fking sister.suddenly come home screaming she wouldnt help me anymore.wtf?i relly din have the money n neither do mak.n she said that as if like i have money n din wanna give her.irritating siak.then i used this computer when she was lying sick in bed n another fking sister comes in saying that im inconsiderate as she was sick.FUCK LA.i just wanna check my mail n log off sey.BITCH.then they happily walk into the bitch's room.

i REALLY HATE HER

BITCH

argh.step cool.go n die la.use ppl's things never return.SHAMELESS

have the cheek to say im kurang ajar

at least i dun pentingkan kawan OVERLY

argh

lovely day

woke up early in the morning today.went dating.haha.wee`had fun.signed up for PAE at MOE.saw mr cheng's bro.as cute as him.saw him like 4 times.n he keep on smiling at me.haha.so cute.cant stand it

haha.after that went to Sim Lim Sq for some software stuffs.then Raffles hospital for some medicine that cost a bomb.haha.then went to meet my long time friend.hee`fun!ate pizza today.haha.then went jln2 at bugis.its like there are 1001 things i wanna buy.n i have yet to start working.haha.

its so fun la.but theres just too many ppl outside.i dun understand why.hmm.maybe it the holidays.

haiya.stress about money.shit!

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bleah`

don't feed me ur fucking bullshit la ppl.tired of it.

argh.

pissssssssssed.argh!

bubble only

fuck la

be decisive la

n just dont feed me ur fucking bullshit

argh.burdened

im now burdened.shit!i owe abg sham $90 bucks.for my samsung phone.shitty.shitty.argh.where the hell m i supposed to get the money by weekend.nvm.i'll try my best.if i cant get the money how sey..im soooo gonna die.

my first two sisters bought me presents.expensive presents.with their husbands.kak yati bought me a birkenstock.i was like just joking when i asked for a birkenstock n she really bought one for me.woahh!!!!im soooo happy.my first birkenstock.i really like the design too.haha.but its very ex la.$129 seyy.hmm.kak sri and abg sham on the other hand bought me a samsung phone.not really paying for the whole thing actually.they paid one third of the price.n i like paid the rest.traded my phone in.n all.n i owe him $90.i feel so bad.they're gonna have a kid n here they are listening to my nonsensical present ideas.haiya.though i love it so.im still like kinda segan.

but i sooooooo love my family members.though some are so shitty as to make their friends more important.NVM.my family still rocks.of course excluding my pelokek father.

hmmm.the dumb me sold my phone with all my contacts inside.DUMBASS la asmara.now i have to like find ppls no.track them down n all.im such a DUMBO.shit me.all my pics.all the msgs.esp some nice ones i've been keeping.haiya

life is nice.im eligible for 3 months course.but im damn sick.losing my voice reall bad.keep on getting hiccups.im growing man.ahaha.so big already need to grow meh??haiya.im still so worried about my money.i have ard $35 in bank.ard $7 in wallet.where m i supposed to get the reamining $48.haiya.i'll just ask from my mom.starve myself.n thats it.

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happy birthday to meeeeeeeeeeeeee

wee~im 16.yeayy.i really can differentiate true friends n friends.when it comes to my birthday.really.

to rendy:THANK YOU!!!!!!!i really din expect anything from you.and for u to send it to me 12am itself.its like WOW!!! haha.thanks alot ya.n sorry for treating u so badly

to zawana:THANKS for singing for me my birthday song!!eventhough ur the cause for the pouring rain,i'll still forgive u.haha.thanks for ur prezzie.love it. LOVE IT.so sweeet of u.really.when i have my own room i'll put it up front so other ppl can see it.ok??

to ezzat:thank for ur lifeless bdae song.haha.thats sweet of u.haha.n thank for giving me the harry potter book.i LOVE it.haha

to shidah:thank for the msg n the welcoming wish when i log into msn.n for ur prezzie.haha.i dun smell okai!!!!thank ur abg sedare tooo.

to fara,sue n zaf:thank for ur butterfly thingies.LOVE THEM

and to my FAMILY:love u to bits n pieces.love SAKURA.love durian puffs.love everything i ate just now cause i ate them with u guys.haha

and everyone who wished me happy birthday.thank you for saving that little space in ur mind about my birthday.n thank u for remembering to give me wishes.really appreciate it.

haha.alritey.let me share my happy day with you.1stly.i received a bdae present at midnight with a few singers on the phone.then i had a GOOD night sleep n i woke up to a GREAT breakfast made by my mom.hee.then i went to school with a GREAT fren.at school a GREAT group of frens wished me happy birthday.n some gave me GREAT presents too.went to my GREAT home to my GREAT family.n chatted with GREAT friends.a GREAT day isn't it??

went out to eat sakura.really superb.i ate oysters.haha.kewl foodstuffs.but i ove the eclairs n durian puffs the most.wee'

haha

i know ur all bored reading my entry.sorry.i lead a boring life.

cute

hmm.im like free of instant msges n i have decided to blog.been some time since i blogged.anyways.life today was fun.haha.of course la since i was online for hours.haha.chatted away like nobody's business.haha

anyway.its only hours away till my SWEET SIXTEEN.hmm.im sure glad i din have a chalet.i din want to trouble everyone to come n to prepare it.just wanna eat together.have fun.hmm.

had early bdae wishes.from muhaimin n wanie.thanks ya.haha.eventhough its not my birthday yet.i appreciate ur wishes.haha.really dunno the plan tmr.gonna have dinner with my family.before tat go interview??hmm..maybe.i wanna buy hairbands n take my jeans!!!!!!!hmm

gonna watch chinese show first.then eat n study.then go ONLINE.weee`

haha.

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it was fun

the jalan raya was great.it was not planned n yet i find it very fun n relaxed.i think that it really was hari raya.going to each others house.just to bond with one another.mm..

ali had a problem.but at least he admit hiis weakness of not having the guts.that was brave of him.n.it was sweet of him to want to call yo.nice la.at least thats not going to be a problem now.

onepaper to go.hai.i hate my hair soooo much.argh!

the worst day of my life

today was the worst the of my life.the worst i ever felt this year.aaaaaaaaaaarrrrrrrrrrgggggggggggggghhhhhhhhhh.feel like running behind a train n shouting my heart out!!!!

okok.it started of with the art exam prepwork.i din manage to finish it.i feel so sore.argh!thought of doing it when i finish my final piece,GUESS WHAT???i din manage to finish my final piece.

shitty day.dala kluar rumah lift tu naik,bukan turon.i think this is really the worst day of my life.shitty day.all because of art.

im now bored.damn bored.though zaid iis kinda entertaining me.hmm.thats nice of him.my mood is so down all because of ART.

the recent campfire was quite nice la.entertaining though the camper are like SHIT.argh.another irritating thing.but the activities was fun.bought for mdm kartini a presents for her birthday n to bid her farewell.really like her as a teacher.

oko.im boring u now.till we meet again!!!!

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arghhhhhhhhhhhhhh

im totally stressed up.argh.just feel like going to the beach n scream my heart out to let out all the things that have been troubling me.i hope i did well for el.i expect a B at least.physics was like difficult man.i was like thinking n thinking about the answer.GOSH.this is bothering me real bad.

chem was difficult tooo.i just dont understand some of the questions.and they are bothering the hell out of me.maths as okok.n ss was simple though i dont have strong points,i hope i caan do well.io just thought thaty they wouldnt ask on that simple topic n i thought wrong.that irritated the bloody hell out of me.life is sometimes sooo unfair.i noticed.

raya was ok la.din do much of going out.and collected ard 120+.im like left with 90 due to buying of tops n the wonderful milkshake n some other necessities.this year is very tiring n pass very fast.i cant even imagine fasting for 1 whole month.the event seemed too fast for me to even remember.

ive just woken up from a dream though.i realised that this wass the real thing.there is no turning back n that is the reason why i should try my best.my VERY BEST.it occured to me only after two papers that i have all this very lightly.i was trugling with all the topics when i suddenly remembered that i was supposed to finish it up before the exam.n now,after the exams,its still left undone.how GREAT.i feeel so small now as i imagined the hardwork that i put in now was meagre compared to those people who had really want to pass.i want to pass but im just not puting enough effort.i sometimes wonder whether i ever did i ever put in any effort.it is all now a question that have a definite answer.the IFs may come in after the results are in as i know i will say,if i have put in more effort,i would have passed.now to avoid that,i have to put in more effort.ITS NOW A MUST FOR ME.i wouldnt want to be regretful.so here i go

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its like the most boring hari raya im gonna experience.not going out n all.haish.i feel that life is very unfair.dun ask y

been studying a bit lately.but i know that its not enough.but at least better la.i know some of my friends have yet to start revising.hmm.i would like to say.if u dont work hard enough,theres no use crying when u failed cause u put in no effort and spend no time to revise.u'll only cry when u tried ur best n still cant achieve it.i really hate ppl who cry when they fail.its like wtf?some of them dont even put a pinch of effort n they cry away.its not as if they are geniuses.its true what mdm kartini say la.if u fail when u have tried hard,you know whats wrong.but if u failed without effort then u dunno whats wrong.

i may seem n sound mean.but thats what i think.n this is my blog,my views,my perceptions.this is how things look like in me.if you dont like me, DONT READ IT.n dun bother to tag anonymously cause i dont bother replying to dumbasses who tag anonymously.

another thing i hate is people who enjoy boasting.like SOMEONE who is confident he is going to get an A for malay.and SOMEONE who is better than her friends.its so irritating cause in the end he/she achieve none of it and appear embarassed.im not naming who u are cause siapa yang makan chili akan terasa pedas.

i know im not perfect or fabulous.but at least i dont boast.or look down on my friends la.i've cried before cause i've tried very hard to pass.

i've said my peace.any would love nada comments cause i need none of those.

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SELAMAT HARI RAYA!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

yeayyyy.raya at last.haiya.now i can study fully.can spend my time outside.listening to the takbir made me real sad.it's very moving la.hai~hope its gonna turn out nice tmr.esp my curls.just bought the hot curls thingy.i like wan to try out all the hairstlye n see which one suits me best.haha.i feel like getting locks or cornrows.cool right.i just wanna be different.i dun like to be similar to others.

anyway.the house is clean.cool la.cookies are done.everything is ready.hmmm.dun feel like going geylang today.dunno why.maybe i'll still go la.buy deng deng.my favourite.n the chendol too.hmm.looking forward to those things when im there.its quite saddenning.last year in geylang.i've always loved the geylang bazaar.now its gonna move.haiya.how inconvenient.

tmr need to go the neneks house.boring.boring.boring

kak yati gave me a lecture again.keep on asking me to practise.hmm.i started practising.but its just not enough.hmm.need to do something about it.haish.haish.haish.im sooo stressed up.and thats y im got my pms sooner than wanted.haish.that made me more stressed up.

anyway.

SELAMAT HARI RAYA.MAAF ZAHIR DAN BATIN.
i really mean it cause i know im very mean n all.hope u all forgive me but if u dun,nvm.i wont force u.gawd.im so lame.anyway.have a nice day.