oh gayyy finally done with sexams (sucky exams) god knows what grades i will get, hopefully no Cs od Ds please. despite my lack of hard work on the finals, i did a great deal for projects, oh dear please keep that in mind. results in less than four weeks, how fucking awesome is that? hah so i have four fucking weeks to squeeze fun lively shit ass plans holidays books exercise (hee) and shows pretty pretty shows. though i hardly doubt my results will have any prolong effect on me. and no honours track blearghhhh why am i so stupid? life sucks and so do i.

what about now?

twenty one and i still haven't figured out what i wanna do in life.



but thank you sisters for the awesome surprise party (:
i can't repay you for the extremely high costs, but i can try to come up with half of the costs.

so fucking rude. can't wait to get out from this hell hole.

i am finally back here, its been a while. i need to get cracking on things, like finally getting my freaking locked diary thingy that i can write in. okay so off to things bugging my mind.

just done with the whole wedding planning, executing and cleaning up. i am officially ever ready to help out or plan weddings, giving my two cents worth and ensuring that the best outcome happens. loved the whole set up, tho there were hiccups here and there, i mean these are part and parcel of life ain't it? loved the food, awesome friends who came (: and of course my lovely lovely but extremely annoying family members. glad i was of help, and glad i didnt screw up anything, i mean it is someone else's day and if its mine, i really can't give a damn. so yup, i do miss my freaking annoying sister tho, can't help but cry when she left the other day. but i am sure she will still conveniently slot herself into my schedules. and it can't get any better (:

apart from that the oh so many fucking deadlines. fucking krazy especially with fucking annoying mates to do with. can't believe i did the whole ignoring thing with seth but he reached my limit. like wtf seriously. dont give a fucking damn anymore. one more to go and i am a free woman to study for the freaking exams. life sucks and so does school.

my days are packed too, weddings, shit, stuff to do, and the neverending need to study. sigh. semester's ending, and it was such a black hole sucking me in till i lost track of time, and space.

plans for the holidays: work, look for permanent work, tv sweet tv, books glorious books, association of mistaken young mothers outing, shoppingshoppingshopping, BEACH HOLIDAY!!!! and some quality time with myself and the sun and the pool and the tracks and the bicycle. ahhh can't wait for these little bit of indulgence. and of course some helicopter drop to happen too.

now, i have to come up with plans. for the freaking future. and some direction in life. InsyaAllah it'll all come soon enough.