superhuman, you.

i still find myself inconveniently stuck here. nowhere. facing too many walls blocking my way. to somewhere. walls i built up. walls people throw in my way. walls that suddenly prop up because of the decisions i've made. these walls, they can be ruined, they can. especially the ones i built up. but these walls i built have got to stay. cause once i let them down, i have a feeling i might go wild. crazy wild. so i gotta be grounded. to a certain extent. its the walls people threw at me that's getting my attention. they said nothing ventured, nothing gained huh? but i've ventured my all. nothing gained. zilch. these walls, they stifle me. they limit my potential. breaking them down takes too much effort it seems. i don't know if its worth it anymore. is it?

i've never tried hard, ever in my life. so when i actually do my bestest (imo) don't i deserve a bit of appreciation? i don't know. maybe i don't deserve anything. afterall, what you reap is what you sow. i'm tired of sowing already. so forget it. time seems to fly by now. hope it'll fly like crazy until i manage to get away from here. then you gotta go slow kay time. need it.