i'm such a loser that i still haven't get a job. and its surprising that my family members don't really bug me to get one. but i'm just so tired of staying at home(yes i am, surprisingly) cause all i do is eat, watch tv, eat, sleep or go out. not productive at all. and with one tree hill dvds at home, i have sleepless nights and become all groggy and drunk when i go out. not good, cause i don't get money for that and i'm so bored of it. i really need to get my butts to work.

i even applied for jobs at punggol plaza la please! loserific, but near and peaceful and i know NO ONE at all. see how desperately in need of a job i am. oh, and i wonder who'll countdown at punggol's mambo jumbo night. what a laugh! but actually, some people will actually go cause hady's performing. whatever. i need a plan for new years eve. and that plan includes a midnight movie, so someone better get their butts free to watch midnight with me cause i don't wanna be a loser and watch midnight alone.

p/s: its all jumbled up cause i am tired and i only slept for less 12 hours for 2 days. impressive for someone like me, ain't it?

it is just unfortunate that the year have to end tragically with a death.

its a beautiful starry night.
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i am feeling miserable cause i'm sick, jobless and didn't get to ride on the all-terrain vehicle during the stay in bintan.

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i think am having a bitch fit cause all i can see around me are people who thinks the world revolves around them and that i've got to make plans with them and book them way in advance cause they're busy little souls who are responsible for tomorrows. seriously, if you guys aren't interested at least a little, you just have to spare the one little second to tell me you aren't so i don't have to think about the perfect day that can suit everyone. i am just tired. tired of trying to make little trips which everyone can enjoy.

and your replies, oh my god, is just plain annoying. just block me or something so that you don't have to deal with me at all, than to give me that sort of replies. like i've done you wrong. like wtf, seriously.

i know i'm a coward to be expressing this online and not to that person's face, well, time'll take me there when i've run out of patience and all the energy to keep the friendship alive. therefore, the person(s)'s identity shall not be disclosed under any circumstances so, don't even think of asking.

the most difficult thing to get over: issues without closure.
cause your lack of gut to confront it just keeps on haunting you for the rest of your life.


but truthfully, i just don't have the guts to do it.