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dixie chicks's not ready to make nice is a must watch/listen

i believe today will be a good day. i've successfully completed ALL of my detentions. woohoo(: no more early saturday mornings. but i guess i need to come to school on saturdays to do some self-study, IF the week's been good. but its not compulsory anymore! hope i don't come late anytime soon. wanna enjoy the upcoming saturdays. these few weeks have been ultra tiring. need time to take a break, for once.

BUT my upcoming saturdays are packed. next week, i'll be going for the dance performance/midsummer night dream. i dunno which one to go to since dumb me forgot i've got the dance performance and signed up for midsummers. i'm so dead, i swear. as much as love to watch midsummers since its under the stars, i've already paid for the dance performance. shit la. next next saturday would be the tj's gema something. and next next sunday is the class CIP(i think) and malay dance CIP. can't be bothered to think about the following weeks. too much stresssssss. its all building up.

life indeed is tiring ):

and the so called 'long' weekend have been shortened. giving us dozens of homework and calling it a 'long' weekend, is too shitty. i'd rather go to school i tell you. at least i don't have 4 essays due if theres school. not including other assignments i have to complete. aiya. and this stresses upon the need to study and start revising. been lagging too much.

urghhhhhhh. at least i had fun yesterday though i was damn bloody fcking tired. need rest after today's service to the makcik. eventhough this have been a terribly tiring week, at least for once(after a few weeks), i'm less bitchy and pms-y. i think its that time of the year where i hate everyone. and i'm still hating, or rather, starting to hate people.this feeling SHOULD go away.

ooh! candyman video is a MUST WATCH. it super cool. but its not so clear here. go watch it on MTV if you can. better quality(:

hellogoodbye boy, its been too long

i swear my pride have issues

i'm very much indecisive nowadays. one minute i want to do something, they next minute i don't. i hate thinking cause that'll will cause that uncowardly act of mine. i hate to swallow my pride. and as much as i wanna make things better, at least for me, my pride won't let me. internally telling me that it's not my fault and that i should not apologize. i'm not sure you see. i wanna make my conscience clear but at the same time, if my pride's involved, it will haunt me for life, making me regret my actions. i really don't know.

and the headaches not helping either. three consecutive days of dancing in the rain really makes me sick. and the thought of my econs case study due today, geog test tmr and the long list of weekend homework just makes it worse. i guess i won't be catching sleep tonight. will be busy attempting to pass geog, since i have totally flunked my econs. sigh. this is the period to break down and cry i suppose.

i need to learn how to let the pride down and how to seize the day. but hell, old habits(traits for that matter) are difficult to change.

if only i have the courage to do that

i actually have written an entry about my uber cool weekend at the chalet celebrating my nephew's first. but after writing such a long entry, i think that its too long winded since i have lotsa things to say from the tiresome day i had in school till my regret for zonking out on the girls. but one thing's for sure, i'm so happy you girls came down and strip your stuff(:

haha.

oh, and mark lloyd gomez; sorry for missing the party of the year.i really feel bad about not going, and for missing the blackmailing plan i had, cause john was wasted. heh.

apart from that, i'm trying very hard to catch up on all the homeworks in the world. i mean with the tests coming up, i really need to buck up. this will be the final year for me if i put my all.i for one don't want to repeat taking As. i swear the thought of it makes me giddy. to experience the stress for another year is just too mind boggling. so, lets just get this done and over with la. but, i am very much aware that that will need me to give up my social life(eventhough i hardly have one). that is very hard to ask for. i mean, i'll miss all the eating out, gelare, stupid nonsense and of course strip poker. i mean, that doesn't include the movie marathons or movie-ing la. but sacrifices need to be made in order to achieve something. i don't know.

you know, i've been wanting to do something so badly, but the pride just won't let me.

the first time this week that i reached home before dark. which is prolly because i have to be at the chalet before nine tonight. and because i have yet to pack my bag, i need to be home early to do it and try to catch some sleep. its a pity that my nephew's chalet is in the middle of the month. i'm so busy and stressed out with school that i barely had any chance to help my sister in anything. now i feel useless, except for the fact that i helped her with the goodie bags and the cards, which aren't really difficult.

i still can't believe that i've got detention and school tmr la. this is bloody stupid. the fact that i've to reach school super early, and i end super late. its like a normal school day for me. what the hell la. saturdays shouldn't even be refered to as a weekend la. and i have to get to school from aloha la. thats worse i tell you. hopefully my father'll send me or something. hopefully.

furthermore, school's been sucky enough la. i just can't seem to stand some people. but thank god i don't hang around them much. if not i'll just die in the attempt to be patient and 'nice'.

oh. i should better stop whining and start resting. long day tmr.

tiring week with a packed weekend.
i'm dead-beat.
too much drama.
too much work.


too much of everything
:(

you know what;

i never knew being malay was sucha sin. but no matter what, i'm proud of it, at least i'm malay.


what're you?





everything's just getting on my nerves.

these past few weeks have been hell. continuous flow of work, CCAs, and competition plus the stress of doing well after screwing the blocks. i am goddamn tired, i swear. and it doesn't stop there. saturdays are officially schooldays. eventhough i'm not down for SSP(like i thought i would). i still have one more detention i have to complete(i think, since i haven't been coming late). i think turning up for school on saturdays is a good exercise, since i'll study and find useful resources from school, which i don't have time for during the weekdays. so, coming back on saturdays is not that bad, afterall.

because i've lost saturday's sleep(and waking up late). that'll leave me with sunday to get my sleep. i seriously need sleep. i'm not asking for beauty sleep, i just wanna sleep. with the mounting homework, and the late school nights, its just so goddamn difficult to sleep early. have been sleeping less than 6 hours a day, and my eyes just can bear to open up. thank god it hasn't got me started sleeping and dozing in class(which a major disappointment for me).

anw, we girls got silver for syf, disappointment/achievement? i think its an achievement, cause noone got gold. and apart from that, a whole lot of us's not experienced at all. so, good job girls(: eventhough the word silver does dishearten us slightly, we need to look on the bright side of life!

and the dreadful blocks results shall be the last. i need, need, need to work hard for the term 3 blocks, please let me pass econs. and start working on geog. and put in more effort in lit. hopefully by term three, i can grasp all the topics needed.thank god i've done well for the two H1 papers i took last year. cause've got a B for project work! woohoo(: HAPPY,HAPPY!

yesterday's friday the 13th & i swear lady luck was by my side, cause i didn't miss the last 858 bus home, and aipork didn't too. and my father didn't have to listen to alot of complains eventhough he's still shocked over the fact that i got a U for econs. heh. nothing new, ayah. nothing new at all. though it'll change soon, very very soon.

i look forward to a better month ahead, without stressful training days. and increasingly fruitful days.
:D

&WW, your mom's gonna know about your eyecandy in school. HAHA

its april! (:
that means, freedom
no more bloody time & energy wasting CCAs