oh well.
its a spoiler.
waking up early on a sunday morning kinda feeling.

and things ain't gonna change.
being the odd one out.
being the last to know stuffs.

are things looking up?
or does it keep getting worse?

one thing's for sure,
its through

mind's made up
things are certainly getting mutual
and for the record,
i decided in mere seconds

a good thing?
hell yes.

& it doesn't help when people look down on you.
oh, am i in so deep?

OH NO!

its happening all over again

to give chances? or blow it up?

and the fact that

I'm going DOWN DOWN down is not helping

cause i wanna go up UP UP

and the gravitational pull is not helping at all

they way you're reacting is not helping either

there's not even a tinge of compassion in you

why?

maybe i am asking a little too much

but well, have the initiative

it doesn't help when you're doing all this

but i have decided to make it into something neutral

yabadabadoo?

at least i have decided on what i should do

no more, 'i don't know-s' and confusion

what you've done, or rather what you haven't been doing have proven that things....

are better left unsaid.

it must have been love
but its over now

Monday's surprise by darling Jannah, Syafiqah, Zarifah and Nadzirah!




Late night Swensens cause my family was lazy to buy me a cake. Damn! I didn't get to make a wish this year.


Hook-up with secondary school babes! Was SURPRISINGLY FUN! Love you people!

what more can i say? its great!
with your classmates celebrating your birthday with you on the day itself. super sweet of them. thanks a million for the wonderful and memorable birthday guys!

and my week was packed.
=)

but you had to somehow spoil it.
good thing i didn't expect too much.
lucky escape from depression.
hoho=D

oh no. i just went to the adidas warehouse sale.
painstakingly bought a pair of shoes.
and went home to find that majority of the people doesn't like it.

and its changing my mind all over again.
fickle-mindedness
HOW?!

at the rate i'm going, i'm not gonna wear it.
ombg!
that means, wasting $60.
can someone please buy it from me if i decide that i'm not gonna wear it.

i shall NEVER go shopping!
NEVER EVER!

don't ask why and how,
but i think i've lost faith in friendships

it just dawned upon me
or maybe i was expecting far too much from friendships
whatever it is, the expectations lowered to nada-zilch

ohwells,
lets make merry for the holidays are here
work/slack?
well, i'd wanna work for the money
but i'm such an ass(lazy)

now, enlightenment please?

i've thought through it through and through
and i ask myself the very same question
and its been left unanswered till like forever

i hope it goes somewhere this time
cause i don't like the feeling of being unsure
though its quite impossible to ignore it

blablabla. the weeks getting on fine
or so i think
can't believe i'm having the tests are coming back

i'm promoted,
alhamdulillah.

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the needles going the right direction
thank god

but i feel sour inside
i mean, they way i put it, it makes her sound bad
she's not, she's just doing it out of the friendship

oh shucks
i'll clear the air for sure!
i must, i must, i will!

and the weekends here
more moooovies at night
pure love=D

i'm all hyped up for a sabotage deal today
oh benabena, do initiate
miss piggy's going downunder

yuppadoodledoo
and i've balanced everything out
tadaaa

a job well done,
perhaps

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Five little indians(then,)
Four little indians(then,)
Three little indians(then,)
Two little indians.

what's next? one little indian?
i'll be very depressed if that were to happen

my oh my.
poor little thing.

it all seems hyprocritical.
but at the same time, thats the truth.
i've grown numb to all this.
that i've become more generalized.
thus the blank reaction when it happens
again and again and again

well done now, well done.

i'm hyprocritical
to myself, most of the time.

and oh no!
it's keeping me afloat
i wanna get down on the ground
being up there is no fun when i know i'm going down again
is it?

i should really get out of my comfort zone.
i really need to do something out of this world.
ideas please?

i enjoyed myself yesterday
i smiled to sleep dammit

and its november!
oh no!
time flies veryveryveryVERY fast,
unknowingly...

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Happpy Halloweeeeeen

nice costumes i came across today.
nice company i had today.
nice feeling i had today.

but something struck me so suddenly, i didn't even get the chance to breathe.

and everything went sour.
from people i came across.
things i did.
decisions i made.

okay, you get my drift.

i'm in a utter state of confusion.
where'll this lead to?
hell once more?
or merely instances ala cloud nine?
i've been trying to distance myself.
well, i can't do much considering the fact its been going on for like 3 days?
but i don't want history to repeat itself.

oh man.

i need much concrete signals.