malay paper

im not confident at all.argh.ddddying soon.i NEED to get an A for malay.pls pls pls give me an A.argh.sitting,waiting n wishing for n A.

haiya.the paper was ok la to me.just hope i dont go out of point.

someone is pissing me off real bad nowadays.really.give me such fking attitude.waste my time.then keep on asking n asking as if so dumb.argh.getting on my nerves.cant take it.

hari raya is in a few days.dont feel like it.bad year.exams ard the corner.cant raya.dont feel like buying baju raya.going geylang in a few days time.buying my favourite kerepek.maybe buying flowers from kasaisayang also.hope raya will turn out nice.n my Os too.need to study hard n study smart.been thinking if my schedule.im just not sticking to it.how now?

cant disipline myself to follow it.argh.hope i can loose those points which is hampering my jc dream.got some motivation for science yesterday.haha.it was cool.anyway.thats abt it except that my fathers a freaking jerk.HMPH.hate him.destroying the nice hari raya only.stingy jerk.

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fond memories of evgss

yesterday was the last day of secondary school.for good.its always like this.you've been given something you've always wanted and you dont want it anymore.seriously.this is what im feeling.maybe because you've bonded with the people there till its harrd to let go.like my gfs.its a good thing they've all come yesterday.putting a fullstop to the last day of school.i am glad.rather than attending school alone and putting n end to it alone too.

school was great la.had maths n skipped science.to do art.done most of the things.but still have to do alot.hai.im stressed up again.shitty.art is a shitty subject.haha.we're going to ms pushpa's house for deepavali.yeay!haha.

im so damn tired sey.n my shitty cousin made me damn fooled.twice.argh.shit him.

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utterly idiotic

i sooo hate my mom.so irritating.it wasnt even my fault.kak huda was the one who made the kueh burnt and ahe was nagging nagging nagging.wtf?just get ur facts right before making me damn fucked up la.it was good enough that i acompanied u yesterday.

aaaaaaaarrrrrrrrrrgggggggggghhh.

i so hate life now.i feel so down.cant go out with my girlfriends.no money.my mom refused to give me.she's becoming like my stingy father.gosh~hate her.i've not been asking for money n she treats me this way.like wat sey.

finished drawing the first hand for serpent,lantern n mask.tired.continueing later.i sure am glad zawana went to buka also.if not i'll feel very guilty.it better to let me suffer alone at home then let her do the same too.

i've only been out to buka once.and my mom like nag."kluar buka lagi".she's really getting on my nerves.im like soo pissed.life sucks really.cant stand her blabberings.its tooo troubling.i sure am glad that im not talking to her anymore.i wouldnt need to listen to her nag.

im like thinking whether i should go to school tmr or not.most probably yes la.i think i'll go even though i woke up late.anyway.theres art after school, so why not go also right.finish up my art prep once and for all.somemore,its the last day of school

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a wholey day

i have like lotsa things to say.really alot.but haiya.been feeling down lately.been thinking alot about my Os.its really bothering me.

din sleep the whole night reading "strange but true".it was thrilling but i really din see what was strange but true.maybe the whole pregnancy thingy or maybe the medication.anyway.im like totally sleepy rite now.gosh.trying to make these small eyes stay wide open as i have alot of uncompleted english homework.i figured that if im like damn tired,i'll skip tmr's lesson n meet her on other days.but there are no other days already.friday is the god damn last day of school.what freaks me out is that teachers have not been giving us last minute tips.they just keep giving worksheets.practise practise practise.

humans was cold n efficient.i know most of you dont like mdm kartini's lesson.but she's effective.really.she'll make u do the qn n u will see n find your mistakes to prevent u from repeating it.maths too.did this mini test n i got 51 over 60.8 marks for careless mistake.and the one mark that i dont know was the rational n irrational thingy.i've never in my whole entire life known what it is.hmm.let me find out.

malay was quite boring.though syafiq was being funny.he was teasing mdm iswani most of the time.haha.but that made us laugh too eventhough it wasnt appropriate to do that to a teacher.art is such a complication.seriously.i want my art piece to be something artistic,not straight forward.n like ms puspha was saying,"urs is already a kite.just suspend it in the air la"what the heck.its like pictionary instead of art.right?bleah`gonna spend time thinking bout it while doing the damn prepwork by friday.

after sch was okla.photostated some pop up cards instructions.trust me.its SUPERB.ask rai if u dont believe me.then went to meet ain to give chem book.then went into sch to take grad certs and then met rendy,ezzat n ain again.rushed hime since im going out with my mom.it was okla.i was sleepy most of the way.having the urge of falling asleep in the bus.read slamdunk 29 already n it was boring.the results was still unknown.wth?

otw going n coming from my trip,i did some calculating.im like way behind time.way way way behind time.malay os was in 5 days time.n i still haf to study for it.chem was worse.im still stuck at chap 1 and its like 2 wks before the chem os.i've been revising lately but i somehow think my effort arent that great seeing my progress ever since the prelims.my prelim results wasnt a big hu ha.so must study hard.hmm

feeling feverish now.bleah`who cares.

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berries

another boring day.im damn bored.studied a bit of physics n chem today.still.for 24 hours i studied that only.okla.the day have not ended n i still have time to finish up my el hwk.haiya.din go school.damn im getting lazier.tmr a must go since getting my art paper.hish!i HATE art.i LOATHE art.aaaaaaaaaaaaaaargh!

naqui was damn irritating.trust me.i cant stand him.keep on saying that he can walk n even jump.WHO THE HELL CARES?forget him

at least he's out now.hmm.im so DEAD.dont ask

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another "fruitful" weekend

i think that at the rate im going, im going to die.really.i've done no single revision whatsoever this weekend yet again.shit sey.i really really need to do something about it.moreover, the malay Os are around the corner,bleah`

stress!

thinking about whether im going to school or not.hai~should i or shouldn't i?

hmm...

tomorrows day out isnt really confirmed.how now art thou?

i think the best thing is to buka while walking cause the possibility of getting a seat is very low.

haiya.im soo bored to hell at home.

with no one asking me out.

hee-

anyway.im booked for two days.gonna go out buka with...

jeng3.

haha.im crapping yet again.haha

lifes so boring this weekend.need to study.

NEED.you know the diff b/w need n want right?

this NEED is killing me

haiya.

bleah`

i've been thinking abt the wedding planner story.

its sweet n all la.but kinda bullshit

how can someone have a kinda fairytale wedding?

i wan that kinda wedding then

with...jeng3

BRAD PITT.

hahaha

the story drive me crazy was also cool la

hmm

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the skeleton key

to the tags.starz:who the hell are you?don't tell me you are Sadiq ar.n fara:you dun have to cry for me la.seriously.i know u miss me cause i din come to school today.haha

anyway.no worries ppl of the universe.im going to change my blogskin soon.i get sick n tired of it fast.haha.anyway.i went out with kak iffa n kak nora today.planned to go geylang but changed to town n lastly to yishun to watch a movie.THE SKELETON KEY.

it was GREAT.i loved it.though i hate the ending.it just sucks.really.it was a cool story.hmm.then went to but some stuffs for sahur.then when i was lining up to pay.theres this stupid guy who keep on turning as if im a alien.so irritating.bleah`

i hate ppl who stares at me as if im an alien cause IM NOT.haha.wana buka at my house today.was cool la.it was as if a girly day.cause my sisters friends came over too.so cool.kak huda had her prom tonight.*sobs*so jealous.she looked nice la.but i'll look better.haha*grins*niwae.after this day.i'll be able to wear he flair skirt.weeeeeeeeeee
it soooooo nice.ask wana.she knows.haha.

cant wait to experience prom for myself.need to work hard n get into a jc n *poof* theres my prom.haha.im gettting all crappy late at night.haha.

its all about u.its all about u baby.

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its all about you

i really like the song by mcfly.its like so cute n sweet.haha.really.anyway.just wanna tell you guys to keep tagging eventhough i dont reply cause my dumbass of a tagboard dont work on me while it works for everyone of u.so ironic.haiyo

n starz.who are you??haha.zaf rite?hee~just curious.im sooo pissed sey.dunno for what reason.HE'S like damn irritating n now wants to be friends.wth?HE'S the one who din want to befriend me n now he wants.lame sey.the years of kawan have passed la.really.now everyones my friend n so r u eventhough im not yours or whatsoever.you've always been like this.act so bitchy until ppl get mad and then apologize.bleah`then do it again.haiyo.

today was okay.unluck have always been attracted to me.the gas din work n i din get solution T.good thing i was very alert n attempted the chem qn first.if not.haiya.die die die.it just sucks to not have luck by ur side.haha.

chatting was fun today.eventhough not much.he sent me songs again.he's really one hell of a song promoter.haha.n a emoticon promoter.now i haf like lotsa cute emoticons.thx yar eventhough i know ur not reading this.haha.im damn mad la.anyway.i wish my bill this month is not that high.if not.i'll die.cant use the phone so often now.

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agitated

life just suck.really.when u feel that everything is going fine and u realise that something is being kept from you.argh!trust me.life is NEVER fine.i just realise that.someone always keep something away from you.the thought of it just makes me mad.bleah`

forget it.i hate sneakypants.really.

i hope that never in my life i've been one.anyway.my father is really putting me down.he said i cant make it with my kind of results.wtf?u've never been there to support me and when i get my results u complain.arrr.just like the peribahasa rumah sudah pahat berbunyi.really sey.

forget it.his words dont mean a thing.

im just glad there are friends out there who can make me smile even though i have yet to see them face to face.they are way nicer than those i have.they dont call me BASTARD.they respect my decision of not wanting to talk on the phone and they help.they dont keep things from me either.they should anyway since im not as close to them.bleah`

know alot of things ON MY OWN today.really din expect that.i wonder.my sisters are as shitty as ever.their friends are way better than them.i really wonder how her friends can tolerate her epileptic behaviour.

the trip yesterday was okay.it was damn tiring though.i still loved the cute hairstyle n the vogue style of the girl.MAC.haiya.im just troubled.seriously troubled.bleah`forget it.dont ask.

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how unfeeling

i was stuck outside my house once again.but this time for 2 whole hours n plus2.gosh i feel so damn sick.really.nearly vomited cause i think i din eat sahur.bleah`

im really angry with my mom.all that she said when she saw me outside was "padan muka".im like damn tired n pissed + hungry n she said THAT.wah lao.it wasnt even my fault.she exchanged her keys with mine cause mine has the inner door key n hers doesnt.wth sey?

aaaaaaaaarrrrrrrrrrrrrrggggggggghhhhhhhhhhhhhh

not gonna talk to her.so unfeeling n heartless.hmph.

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yeay!

YEAY!!!!!!!
i've officially passed ENGLISH for the PRELIMS
YEAY!!!
and its supposed to be more difficult than mid-yr
and i like failed during the mid-year paper

WOAH!!!!im soooooooooo happy.
i wouldnt need to listen to naggings and all
yippee!!!i've done pretty well i guess
i improved
my currrent L1R4 is 19 n L1R5 is 24
yeayyyyyyyyyyy
from 29 to 24
5 points down
im soooooooo glad
all thanks to el
gonna practise real hard
bleah`happy for wana too
yeay!!may we succeed

strangely.our scicence marks are like changed.it increased.yea.but not too good.i still got my big fat 5 hate it.eventhough its still better than 7 i still hate it.

im eligible for MI.but i dont think i'll be able to go since there are those who got better than me.bleah.i still proud of myself.hehe.

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irritating

im feeling as irritated as ever.

plan doesnt work out.no calls whatsoever

wth?

gosh.this is irritating the hell out of me

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curiousity killed the girl

today; got lotsa papers back. except for art and english. waiting for the english results is killing me la. i'm damn scared that i'll fail english(again) cause that'll be the end of it all.gosh.i don't think i'll be able to accept the fact, yet again. and maybe will turn to weeping once again. this really sucks.gosh.

i failed science only so far (and hope it will be the only subject i fail).i suck sey.but its a good thing, since i know which chapter that i'm weak in. sigh. it doesn't matter if i pass all afterall cause what's the use of passing all the other subjects but failing english?(touches wood).

forget it. at the very least, i passed humans, lit, maths and malay.eventhough its not well done, i hope i can do much better for my O levels. forget it. its no use saying without doing right?

gonna start intensive studying programmes.but i wanna go to the bazaar first.to buy keropok lekor. my favourite! maybe deng-deng too. hehe. im gonna get real fat this hari raya.haha

anyway. i hope i'll do well. i hope zawana does well too.
*hoping*

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yippee

im gonna have a chalet afterall!!!!!yeay!!!!!!!!!!!!!but guess what???i'll don't think i'll be inviting alot of ppl over.truthfully.those who have been pretty irrtating can just forget about being invited.really

thats all i hafta say.thanks kak yati for finding free chalet lots!

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sucky day

shitty day.

hate it.got the results.sucky sucky result.haish~i couldnt seem to get my aim.gosh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!this is really freaking me out.

geog was doing fine.only that mdm kartini refused to give me the one mark she canceled from my section B.at least i did fairly well for my section A.it gave me a 28.now i have to pray hard that i can get at least a 22 for SS.this is killing me.

maths.i desperately wanted an improvement.gosh.and it was still ard 50s.i hate myself.i think the effort i've put in is just not enough.hai!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!maths.must do very very very very very well for my paper two.to beat an obnoxious proud zhong rong who goes ard telling ppl how well he'd done for the paper 1.so proud.rendy who got 79 wasnt as proud as him sey.anyway.i was very glad that zawana passed her paper 1.go for it!!!!!!!!!!!!!haha

malay.a shitty subject.the highest that anyone could get was 69.and it had to be Khairi the action guy.haha.i did very badly for my bina ayat and compre.shitty.hai!!!!!im just getting very pissed off with myself.

stil cant wait for the el results.its the upmost important subject.i hope i can pass.a pass will be enough for me.hope i can get the pass.im so scared of getting the other results.haiya.but the curiosity is killing me.

anyway.going out today.after days of not going out.thinking of revising maths and do el hw today.not forgeting art.

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alarm

woke up late today cause of the stupid lift alarm.so irritating.somemore i was like sleeping in the living room accompanying kak huda studying.the stupid alarm was like ringing non stop.then we decided to cal the stupid lift person.haha.soon after it was like nice n quite.as needed

hehe.so.today was supposed to be the trip to melaka to eat chendol gula melaka.but everyone refused to wake up when abg sham kejot, so he like went some where.haha.nvm.mak's gonna cook crab today.yippe...hehe

gosh.must start studying already.art is also waiting for me.haha.i'll come soon.haha.my name was like nicely done graffiti-like .........all thanks to leslie.haha.mad guy.

anyway.

sweet

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damn sweet

damn.he's like super sweet.i shall not give u guys more info.haha.really sey.thats like really sweet.shush!

heh.nothing to do today.im soo bored.gonna go out tmr.i can't stand being at home all day long.too tiring.heh.

n wana,thank u for saying im lawa though u dont mean it.heh

got lotsa songs today.yippee!!!!!